The following are some additional definitions of spring:
Originate or appear from [nowhere] (my addition).
Suddenly develop or appear.
Present something suddenly or unexpected.
Bring about the escape or release of.
All of these things have occurred since March 21st. In fact, I feel completely “unwound” from the extremes of positive and questionable events…some of my own doing, some “sprung” on me out of the ether
(That’s cosmic ether, not internet).
I am elated and enraged, happy and hapless, excited and exasperated and joyful and juxtaposed.
No matter how we may wish sometimes, we are not an island (Didn’t someone say that?). Our lives, minds and hearts are effected and affected my everything around us, including the energy of others. We are either pulled toward or repelled away from those energies, by a force Antonio Damasio calls our “Life Regulation System”. I love that easy, comprehensible name for the way our hearts and guts react to external (and internal) events that pose potential danger or threat. Our miraculous organism trys to shout out a warning in the only voice it knows, churning stomach, deep, deep chest ache, a frantic running of the mind in all directions…trying to get away from the discomfort.
I had someone get unexpectedly angry with me, caused completely by a refusal to be quiet long enough to hear what was occurring. Like a cannonball hurled without any real target, just a noise in the brush, the rapid-fire explosion impacted everything in the surrounding area. No heed for the wisdom of actions on others, a wild child’s tantrum holding it’s breath, stomping it’s feet, beating it’s fists. All that precious life energy spent, and just like the nuclear plants, the toxic waste left to potentially damage everything in it’s path.
I needed to vent. This precious blog has allowed me to do that, and you dear readers and left to wonder what in the hell happened.
Spring has sprung.